I guess you can call this a journal? I just want to get the words out from my mind

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somemusic to set the mood

Hey..

An average American spends more than 50 minutes on social media a day. I guess the number is the same almost anywhere else. Ever since I got on here I've been increasing my time engaged on social media in general while pulling down my engagement time on other social media. You know, the big 4.

But prior to this I have always been a content consumer, constantly wanting to get that dopamine fix by liking and upvoting the next post. Time spent with no valuable output from my effort. Its wrong, but do I know better?

At least now I do. I may still be burying my head on the phone (like now, on esteem) or on the laptop. But now I get an incentive to be a content producer. Something that takes much much more effort but gives way more reward at the end. I still crave for that next dopamine hit. But now to get them I have to put in effort 7 days in advance. Delayed gratification, the building block of a successful person.

I've been finding myself lacking more and more an asset I need so much now, time. 4 months ago I had all the time in the world. Jobless, no motivation, watch bootleg drama all day doing nothing. How I wish I can trade or store my free time and use them in time of need.

Yea, I've been struggling to handle my time in between the professional obligations, self-development, Steemit, and other things I park under "miscellaneous". Maybe it's as simple as the fact that I may not be using my time wisely. Either that or I still lack discipline.

My original plan was to make a post on Steemit every day. But after a while I've come to realize that making good quality content isn't easy. The most experienced content maker still takes anywhere from 4-6 hours to make a simple post. I know, I asked them myself.

If a successful blogger takes that much time for a content, how then, much more time I need to make something half as good? I simply need to step up my game and learn along the way.

If you've read this far you'd realize this isn't such "quality" post I have in mind. I'm not putting too much effort on editing. This is just me typing non-stop pouring my soul out for all to see on the blockchain. If you don't like it, I'm sorry to had to endure this. If you do tho, thank you so much. I'd like to have a chat with you over coffee one day.

thanks to @mightymicke for this amazing themehe made. You can get the source too by checking him out.

I'm @awesomianist

Stay Awesome.