My 2018: Achievements and Failures - How i overcome struggles of Motherhood

This year is a special to me as i had my second child which i named michael. All my pregnancy was not easy, on my first one i was diagnosed with gestational Diabetes from the second trimester (4 months) till my last trimester of pregnancy. This global disease runs in my family and is commonly strikes among pregnant women.

Failures, Disappointment and Struggles

It was hard, i have to change my diet, It is not i am eating lots of sweets stuff, i am not in to sweets, It is because i have to lessen my carbohydrate intake. In the Philippines, our staple food is (white) rice and is important to us, we eat it everyday and that is no good for a person suffering diabetes. (I usually eat more rice when i like my viand). I have to make sacrifices, alter my diet and choose low carb foods. I learned to discipline myself with my food intake, to be honest, i was impressed with what i can do to improved my blood sugar and it paid off!

I was opting for a normal delivery for my pregnancy but unfortunately, i just can’t, I am small lady (4 feet and 11 inches) for a large baby. That was another failure for me, but i learned to look in to the bright side and be kind to myself, after all having a major surgery is a no joke with all pains and long recovery. I have overcome my disappointments and fears. I triumphantly delivered a very healthy baby thru cesarean operation. Mind you, i was awake during the entire surgery, i can feel sensation but i can’t feel pain if that makes sense.

Greatest Achievements

My greatest achievement was when i saw my baby (Michael) few seconds after they took him from my womb. It was a magical achievement of heart and soul. I kissed his tiny toes and the nurse made michael kissed my cheeks, the emotions was beyond words!

Challenges and Triumph

After the effects of local anesthesia they administer vanished, the pains starts to come. It was an incredible pain, especially the first get up/waking up from the bed after surgery from a 16 hours of recovery phase. Pain was hard as hell! I went to the washroom and it was the longest walked i ever had in my life, eventually the pain lessens day by day.

It was worth every pain i had seeing my baby.

Another challenge of motherhood for me was breastfeeding after major surgery. I thought i couldn’t make it due to pain from surgery, but mother’s determinations always win. I won!

Now i have lots of golds (milk) for michael, a rewarding achievement of my life and motherhood.

Reflections

Sometimes, some things can’t be controlled, but let nature take its course. Let determinations and sacrifices be your achievement. Don’t see failures as a bad thing, it should be another way of learning and accepting.

(My eldest, Robbie)

Thank you for reading.

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