This is so epic I must have sensed it and logged onto Steemit after ages to see it.... Full moon maybe? I have heard that Vitamin B3 is helpful, if you don't want to get the hot flashes feeling from Niacin... you can take Nicotinamide which will give you much needed vitamins while stimulating the same receptors.... But without the hot flush feeling that comes from Niacin... but if you are brave (which you have already clearly proven) go for the Phoenix-like feeling..... or otherwise consider just taking a B Vitamin complex, no doubt available within a 20 min scooter ride. Congrats Bub! The first step is the hardest. It will get easier. The easiest approach I have come across is to simply stop identifying as someone who does that. If that is not part of your character anymore, then you will know on a deeper level that that is no longer who you are, but something new. Also new habits would surely help.... a tiny tiny bit of Pranayama, maybe some steam breathing with essential oils, or a bit of exercise to replace/distract.... Drink lots of citrus juice also..... You may soon feel even better with a detox (no doubt after feeling like shit on the way... but still) and emerge feeling renewed, energized and less short of breath. I wish you all the best on your journey and just take it one moment at a time. You got this, if you want to. Big hugs and come south if you get the chance.... Fruit trees miss you. xo