I've actually never had a problem with being single, I only really had a boyfriend in middle school and he was just a friend, of course nothing serious at that age. And I always saw how other girls acted when it came to relationships, being fake and desperate and settling and it always saddened me. I agree, that's not the best way. Even now, I don't want to be in a relationship because I don't want to become dependent, I know I would and that it would not be healthy for either of us. I'm glad I have this time to better myself. I just fear being alone long after I am ready to settle down.
Maybe there are people who will not mind that I am this way, but I want to be able to give them everything they want, and I don't think I'll ever be able to. I guess that's the part I'm really having trouble coming to terms with. Finding someone, getting married, being happy.. but have my guilt conscious growing, alongside their resentment.