I want to fall in love and have relationships, one day a marriage too, but the way people react to me wanting those things without the sexual aspect that comes with them made me realize it's not realistic.

They may think it's not realistic, but that doesn't mean you have to adopt that perspective. It seems like everyone in our culture considers masturbation normal, but in many other cultures (and even in groups within our own), it's not. People who believe they're behaving normally tend to be blind to the possibilities of other norms.

Right now, the popular thing is to be open and casual about sex. It's not popular to "save yourself for marriage" so people who do don't talk about it much. But they are out there, and are probably more numerous than you think! Not everyone thinks sex is the ultimate pastime.

I tried coming to terms with being single forever, never having a family, never getting to wake up to the love of my life every morning. I couldn't. I don't think that is something you can come to terms with.

I've been there! I struggled with loneliness for quite some time after my last relationship (which ended several years ago). I'm still single, but now I'm very happy. I hope to have romance in my life again one day, but for now, I'm enjoying the time and freedom.

You don't need to come to terms with being single forever to be okay with it now. In my experience, trying to find the right person is pretty much hopeless. The best relationships seem to be orchestrated just for you serendipitously. Also, I think the best way to attract a good mate is to become the best 'you.' Most people act differently to attract mates instead of being themselves. When you're in a place where you're happy in your own skin, you shine like the sun. There's nothing more attractive than that, I think.

Thanks for sharing! I don't really know what it's like to be asexual, but I feel like I can empathize a little better now.