There was a point in my journey where I started to no longer avoid the ever present feeling of needing to create. Producing a visual story was like something I "must do" not had to do. I felt like I wasn't truly being myself until I explored this part of my true self. I am on this journeying process back to my artistic voice so I appreciate you sharing your story and how you have claimed yourself as an artist. You're right, paper isn't important. It's aligning with your unwavering self beneath everything that is. And also, that is the cutest with your boyfriend at the end saying "communicate." :)