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There is sense in "nonesense", so let my nonesensity makes sense to you!

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Many knew me as a gentle giant, some knew me as a fierce being. This two assertions are so right about me- i am both gentle and tough. In my college days, i can be deadly but i never hurt anyone because nobody hurt me indirectly except for the pains and sadness of growing up.

Pains and Sadness

I am that man who had no childhood, but still managed to grow up fine thanks to my two big brothers. I grew up without a dad, lost my dad three years after i was born and it sadly happens to be 3 days to my birthday when he passed, That is why i never had birthdays!

Sadly, 25 years after my Dad passed- my dear mum passed too. She passed right when i was just starting life as a responsible man and everything crumbled for me. The woman who never remarried but married her 3 sons, took debts to take care of them, Go days with them without something tangible to eat. The woman who went all the way with me in a State Military Sponsored Exam to the Final even when all Sponsors backed out because they thought i would not make it- and i came 3rd in the whole of the state back in 1995.

She did not pass on to the great beyond in her prime, she was just 55 years and never saw her any of her grandchildren!

This pains are heavy upon my shoulders, i carry a deep scar inside of me and i hope it all healed. I had no motivation until i found steemit; a place i often open up my bitterness to.

By dreams, i would have been a lieutenant in the Military either in my homeland or abroad. Lateness caused me that, after 9/11 back then; the United States Army came to my country to recruit able lads to go fight insurgencies in the Middle East, i got the gist so late and behold when i got their, they were gone!

By Physical Fitness and endurance, i planned to go to the Olympics as a boxer and maybe become a professional one. I use to be an avid football player, but in the Year 2000; i Fractured my Right Leg- Two compound Fracture plus a dislocation at my ankle, it was an horrific memory as my leg turned backward after the impact on the football pitch back in High-school.

For Six months, i was condemned to indoors. My big brother @peman and my Immediate brother-the father of my godson were my mobile devices; they piggy backed me to some short distances to keep me sane as i was losing my senses for too much in-activities. That changed my sports mentality after i gained my feet back thanks to Dr.Adejumo- i hope he still remembers that boy he saved his leg when others were already suggesting amputation for a teenage boy!

By the time i was 17, i gained in body weight and mass, surpassing my older siblings and my cousins. So i channeled my bulkiness into body building, then i gained admission into one of the deadly local colleges and to fend for myself; i ventured into Karate. After few months of Karate, my coach got tired of me not being able to do a complete 180 split, so jumped ship and became a kick-boxer. It was easy for me as i had some basic training of some nice deadly kicks so mixing it with boxing was juicy to me!

Artist Blood runs in my family, many who knows @peman could attest to that. My Late mum was a fine artist as a Teacher so is my late Grandma- She was a Midwife who knows the anatomy of the woman body by heart. She draws reproductive organs like a piece of cake at an old age, so when i draw i see a piece of her in me. Below is one of my Pen drawing after over decades of drawing except in Exams and Tests.

The details of this drawing i will share in my next blog.

As you can see, i am very rusty; i could have asked @peman to do it for me but i decided to give it a try, upon finishing i showed him and he gave me a thumbs up.

So from my short history, you all could see An Artist, A military by heart, An armature martial art Man, A soccer enthusiast who never made it to stardom.

Dissapointments

I ran a marathon back in 2009, went for a Survival show "Gulder Ultimate Search" that same year, all in my quest for stardom. I was screened out because i couldn't swim!

The marathon was organised by a Telecom Company in my country, Globacom-Glo as it is generally called. The position i took i will not know but my medal still remains missing and i promise to make an account of that faithful day when i became an international athlete or so my younger relatives sees me as a Hero because dozens of them saw me on National Television NTA.

A girl i loved got pregnant to someone else while abroad for her Studies, up till now at 30 plus and still single. I love babies, but never plan to have one out of wedlock. For now, i save my Steemit earnings to go see my godson in Canada!

This Sadness, Pains and Disappointment had impact on my life; but never gonna determine who i am and who am going to be:

I lived through all this with glimpse of hope, i am a fully grown man now who is emotionally wrecked, bitterness had stored up in me that its hard for me to forgive whom ever do me wrong. I have found strength to forgive those who hurt me and my household in my childhood but still never can't forget them. I am the one who never forgets tiny favors because all my life i had little or no helps in all my extremely difficult Situations.

The pains and sadness of others consumed me, that's why i always have little left in my resources because i would always share my bounty to the last. I am benevolent to a fault and so when am called stingy i never forgive such human who knew not my wiring.

The Responsibilities assigned to me i never have rest till i execute them. I am encouraged by positive minded folks, and i am dead shy in my real self-so my defense mechanism from childhood is to put up a cold die hard face, so that i don't flinch when you look into my eyes.

I am he who searches for inner happiness, who sees life from different color even though am color blind. The goodness in me i have used to combat the sadness and pains i had experience and i am loyal to those who values my being!

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