RE: I Am Not Good Enough - The Lost Boys Painting Series
I can relate to every word & internal monologue you said, because i myself is from that background and have been through the "i am not good enough" period. Its a lifelong process to learn, that you are actually loved, cherished and worth something.
At times, you just have to decide for yourself that "you are enough". Not just "feel" like it, but literally CHOOSE to hear the "you are enough" voice ring louder than the "you are not enough" voice. Tho i still feel i'm not good enough at times, but i constantly made my choice to stand up and believe that i am good enough and i'm worth of something.
Cheers to you sis! 🙌
Not wanting to increase my blog exposure or anything, but just want to share a small part of my similar experience to you, tho didn't write very in depth in this :) https://steemit.com/introduceyourself/@michelleloh168/a-girl-who-s-discovering-her-voice
Hugs to you @michelleloh168 ...defectiveness schema is very common among Asians. In order to motivate their children, typical Asian parents would use "reverse psychology" without knowing the damage it could inflict on their kids. Thank you for sharing your story, @michelleloh168 :)
To those who are interested to learn more about Schema Therapy I would like to suggest this book http://amzn.to/2F9p6Gk :)
That is very true, didn't realize how damaged it can be until recent years. Not wanting to blame my parents or anything, cause they themselves might be also growing up in the same environment, hence bringing the same education concept to their next generation. So communication is essential when it comes to conflict like this. Everyone is a first-time parents, hence no parents is perfect. That's where we learn to love & forgive each other along the way. Thanks for sharing your story too @coloringisship, at least I know I'm not alone. :)