It would seem that we share some things. Art and Buddhism and I had an addicted mother. I have learned from Buddhism to be very present in each moment but also use what I have learned from my mother's' addiction in everything including my art. You are an intriguing person.
I am so happy we can walk the Path together for a time, good friends are an essential part of the wayfarer🙏
The addicts, enablers and psychopaths in my life have been my teachers...teaching me what not to do and wise compassion.
I suppose all paths lead up the mountain as the saying goes. I am glad that I did not have to suffer what my mother did. I wish you peace.