Heading into 2018 I set myself a challenge.

To do something creative everyday.

Scribble, draw, doodle, riddle...

The goal was to find a better balance. As my life continued to stagnate due to health issues and my world started to shrink I found myself spiralling.

I had less and less going on, and as time passed I found I was able to acheive less as a consequence. I began to describe myself as Nothing.

"I am nothing."

I wanted to add back something I enjoy. Something that would contribute to a positive balance and enhance my day.

It was also important that this small change be attainable.

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I hate New Years Resolutions.

I never understood looking back on a year, and instead of acknowledging that you survived some tough stuff, judging yourself and projecting that judgement into the next year.

Then applying stringent and frequently unattainable rules that you have little chance of maintaining.
Followed by compounding that disapproval of self with the evidence you manufactured yourself with your unattainable goals.
Goals that were created from disbelief, self judgement and poor self concept.

So I didn't do that...

I decided to bring back my doodle #bicscrawl posts.

The closest I came to connecting with how I was really doing was projected abstractly within scribbly drawings or childish riddles.

At the completion of a month here is a sample of the creations so far.

Thank you to the numerous contests, challenges and collaborations that helped me find the motivation.

Set yourself small realistic attainable goals. Activities you enjoy, not ones that punish you for not being something you tell yourself you should be. Achievable goals once attained provide the fuel and confidence to build upon. It is okay to have bigger goals and dreams. Starting small provides you with the stepping stones towards success rather than sabotaging yourself before you start.