Wow... that's powerful Kaylin; and very personal and very intimate. Yes, you're very courageous for sharing this.

::: pause :::

Ultimately, the reason I didn't ever go through with it was that I was really afraid I'd screw it up somehow... and instead of ending the pain, instead I'd end up in a wheelchair, in a semi-vegetative state, forced to view the rest of my life, screaming inside but powerless.

I'm glad you didn't succeed... the world is a better place because you are in it.