Anxiety Attack
Afternoon Steemit,
I am writing this because some days I feel alone and upset. Today is the day when I don’t feel like myself.
I have suffered with anxiety for years. I have good days and bad days. Today is a bad day. I woke up suddenly and my heart was pounding. I was alone and I felt upset. I don’t know what caused me to feel this way, but it’s definitely not a nice feeling.
I have a friend who also suffers and we talk to each other to help each other out. I tell my friend that I’m feeling low and I don’t know what to do with myself. I was meant to get up and do my bodyweight exercise, but I didn’t have the motivation to do it.
Deep inside my heart hurts. It doesn’t just hurt, sometimes it beats so quickly and so rapidly. I’m full up with tears. All I want to do is let them out! Some days I wish I didn’t wake up. I feel like I can’t face the world. Everyone expects to see the fun side of me. Truth is I put on front when I’m surrounded by a lot of people. It’s such a hard thing to do. Inside I think people are judging me.
A lot of people think I am confident. I try to come across as confident, but in reality I am scared! I’m scared if I say the wrong thing or I do something stupid. I don’t like that feeling when I am trying to guess what people are thinking. I overthink constantly. I’m forever playing conversations in my head, just incase that conversation ever happens, then I know what I’m going to say.
Unless you have suffered with anxiety, nobody knows how it really feels. Everybody asked ’What’s wrong?’ 'Just snap out of it!’ or the worst one ’There are people worse off than you!’ If we knew what was wrong, we would try to resolve it. You can’t ‘Snap out of it’. You can’t instantly make yourself feel better and make the pain and the thoughts go away! That would be far too easy. Granted there are a lot of people worse off, but still doesn’t make you feel any better!
I did however, do my exercise this afternoon. I made myself do it! I do feel a little better, but I know once the adrenalin has gone, I will still feel like the world is on top of me. I’m looking forward for this day to pass and hopefully I would have gotten over today and start off with a better mindset.
I hope this helps with anyone who has or suffered in the same way. You are not alone.
Much love,
Platinum-blue x
Its very helpful the persons who are under anxiety. Its very difficult situation when someone under anxiety. Great post.Thanks for sharing the post.
@thedawn Yes it can make a simple daily task seem like climbing up a mountain. Thank u for ur kind words :-)
I know many people and friends suffering from anxiety attacks.. Try not overthinking, don't care what others say or think coz there is no point on that. We are not living to satisfy others and we cannot always satisfy everybody :) I know that this might not help that much but its just a though :)
Thanks for sharing!
@eliakon thank you so much for your comment. It's nice to know what others think 😊
Thank you for your kind words. It's nice to know how others think 😊
Thank you so much for sharing how you are feeling. It can not only be helpful to other people like me, but it can be helpful to you. I know exactly how you are feeling. It is a very difficult and it is understandable that you feel alone. Panic attacks are very hard and they really do off set the whole day so I just want to congratulate you for pushing through it and doing your workout. Just know that if you need to have a bad day it is okay to do that too.
@anxtymillennial I hope my post does help others. Thank you so much for your comment. I hate suffering and I'm really glad I did push myself today, as much as I didn't want to 😊
I pray you will get through this. Be open to your close friends or family. Please don't keep things by yourself. Try to find an outlet for your anxieties. You are not alone. Express your feelings here in steemit and I am sure a lot of good people will help you. Keep on steeming and think positive! I care for you.
@georgie84 Thank you so much. Your words made me feel happy.
You're welcome. Just feel free to express yourself, whatever you have in your thoughts which you think will ruin you then let people know... those people you think you will trust to. Its better to express here over steemit since only less people will recognize our identity or who we are. Self expression really helps... okay? Ajah!!! Fight...fight...fight...
I totally know the feeling, i was to have panic attacks alot, it really made me feel helpless especially when in crowd, i tried some recommendations from a therapist and things began to normalize
You are not alone in this, hope time thing it will subside and reduce its effect
@charles92 Thank you for your comment. I'm sure I will feel ok tomorrow
Ah away from the dream diary huh? Well I must say anxiety are still times from the stress of work, the thoughts we keep in our head and a whole lots.
It also takes a whole lot to fight it
@josediccus I hate feeling anxious. It's the worst feeling in the world. I still did have a few dreams last night. Here is todays https://steemit.com/dreams/@platinum-blue/dream-diary-15-1-18
I strongly resonate with this as I had a really bad start last week and I felt very similarly to your own description: I felt extremely down and I simply couldn't make myself feel better. It was incredibly hard to get myself to do tasks at work and I had a compulsive thought loop and negative thoughts I couldn't get rid of, despite rational affirmations about my situation.
There's probably no better way to get someone feel even worse. It proves such ignorance for people who say things like that. Though they probably don't do it on purpose but for a lack of understanding.
I also wrote about it in my own blog, in case you want to check it:
https://steemit.com/life/@celestal/my-civil-service-10-extreme-mood-swings
Hope you get well soon, @platinum-blue!
@celestal It really brings you down and no matter what you do or anyone tells you, you just can't feel better. I hope your week gets better. Thank you so much for your comment. :-)
Only the next day can you hope to make a difference. I see you didn't notice I was saying it was my last week I had my episode. This week I've already been better :)
I have Panic Disorder. In my case, I needed to start taking medication (Not all do). I will send you a blog a wrote about myself about two months ago. Hang in there.
I totally agree with you... We try to always leave up to expectation and most times when we notice that we are derailing, we start getting tensed up and anxious.. But according to a professor, if we try not to dwell on the things that might trigger our phobia.. Then we will achieve something beyond expectation.. Life is free.. Lets be free with it.. I sincerely enjoy reading this post.. Thanks for sharing
Sorry. I will send you my blog post as soon as possible. I am having technical issues in doing so at the moment.
Here is my post: https://steemit.com/life/@simivalleyjeff53/augkl-my-personal-struggle-with-panic-disorder
@delaw It's hard isn't it? Thank you for your kind words
It's incredible hard because no one knows the pain and fear we suffer from. However, I got treatment years ago and I am a brand new man because of it. Maybe yours is situational. If it is more to that don't despair! You will hit equilibrium again but the road is tough.