I was indeed with her from her first moments into her last moments out. I would not have it any other way as I needed to be there at the end. I just wish it was better circumstances for her and it was an easier ending. I could've done better if I wasn't blinded by nonsense hope. I am sorry to make you cry. It's one of the hardest things I've had to experience I think, it etches in your mind, those last moments. I hope in time I will get over the guilt I have and those memories of her final face. I am happy she is now happy and pain free.