Holy badass username. Now I'm jealous, yours is clearly better than mine. LOL.

Ok, but in all seriousness here, that was a great introduction for someone who is "not a writer".

No writer who develops his/her own voice follows any one set of grammatical rules flawlessly.

The natural writer wants to convey a certain ebb and flow, vibe or tone, and rigid linguistic formatting tends to kill the buzz for many (though perhaps not everyone).

I want you to know how much I was reading my past self in your words.
I was once right where you are--not very practiced at my writing (though I had a knack for it always, and I think you may as well), and totally new to putting my voice out there. I was nervous, it was outside my comfort zone, and I had no idea where it would lead.

But I was a new anarchist, who had been convicted that I did not want to remain quiet, keep my head down, and shut up... when so many people still supported evil unwittingly.

So I just put one foot in front of the other. That is all you're doing here. Try not to have specific expectations of how anything will turn out, just enjoy each moment, write from the heart, and have a general sense of gratitude and positive expectation that if you stay just outside your comfort zone--magic happens.

It's an uncomfortable truth, necessarily. ;)