After all, it really matters....

Hello everyone ...

From evening till now I have consumed almost 3 cups of coffee, normally this happens when I am in tension or feel pressure. My entire mind, the brain is unstable and I am feeling like someone is continuously hitting my brain with a hammer... Darn, it's too bad you can't even imagine.

I have lots of pending works to do but I can't concentrate. Every single day I feel pressure...

I wish I could scream loudly....

This kind of situation happened to me before, it's been almost 10 years ago, I was not mature enough to handle that situation and fall into depression. I mean serious depression and after that, it took a long time to recover, almost 1 year...I still can't remember properly what exactly happened at that time...

Now, I really afraid of depression because I know what it feels like. Every single day whenever I go infront of mirror I tell myself, I am a fighter, I can manage, it's just a bad time.

But what if several voices whispering around you, poking you nonstop??? Those are just whispers, they don't exist in the real world, they are just illusions, mind game that's it.

Sometimes our mind can betray us but not our brain that's why you feel confused about which one you gonna listen to. Sometimes life plays a cruel role with us by showing reality which we are forced to accept. I have seen abusive behavior from many people, also got a personal attack. It hurts trust me, no matter how strong you are but in the end, it crushes your inside part by part.

Some people love to judge a book by seeing it's cover just like they judge you by noticing your outlook. Who has time exactly to notice you closely... But in the end what you think about yourself matters. People are ready to take benefits from you, ready to use you but....

Obviously there are good people who still love you, care for you and in the end, it only matters.....

These are just sentences, some shit words may be useless words. Maybe you are wasting your time reading this shit post but these lines are matter to me. I don't need to explain myself in fact I won't give any explanations near future...

I know who I am and I know what I am and that matters....

Love

Priyan....

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