I woke up and suddenly you're gone

You came into my life unexpectedly. I was there sitting alone and then you approached me. You asked for my number and then we exchange messages. Just like that, I fell for you. Call me cheap but I know what I feel is true. My once dull life change. I was never the same person again. You made me believe that love isn't just imaginary rather it exists because it happens to me. I was the happiest. I once told myself that you're the one. I promise to be a better woman. I promise to excel so you'll be proud of me because you are no ordinary man. You excel in both academics and sports. You play chess so well I can't help but stare. You made my college life memorable. I was the girl who sees books alone. You made me see the world outside the four corners of my room. Change is what you gave me. Love is what you made me feel.

I remember our first date. It felt so awkward I can't even touch our food. I was so hungry but I can't dare put food in my mouth because I'm afraid it might fell because my hands were shaking out of fear. The Fear I might disappoint you. I can hear my heartbeat. It beat so fast and loud. Why this is my first time to go on a date! Is this the way I should behave? Does my dress suit me well? Words might have left me because I can't even open my mouth to say a thing. This date is an epic fail, I conclude. But, you put something on my plate. It was the spag we both ordered. You mixed it for me and prepared my drink. I was touched. Right there, I know I am falling. Deeply.

We are a perfect couple, I concluded. We held hands. We kissed. We laughed. But as they say, there is no constant but change. Unfortunately, we were not exempted. I wasn't ready. Never did it cross my mind that you'll be gone. I allowed myself to be imprisoned with the thing I called love. I allowed myself to get hurt. I allowed you to cause me so much pain. Now, I have to live with it as it reminds me that it once in my life I fell in love.