I Hope That My Parathyroid Medicine Saves Me From The Crazy Amount Of Pain That I Am Experiencing Right Now 🔨💉😢

I Never Was worried Like This
I am not exaggerating but my Parathyroid is really on a rage right now and I am certain that I would lose this battle if this would continue as I get progressive pain all over my wretched body. My heart seems to be okay as I have not feeling any indication that it will going to fail soon. But regarding my bones I really do not know since the changes are slowly creeping-up on me so any solution is if it will work will take some time to be felt.

So it is my prayer that my plan to use some vitamin D to help my system absorb Calcium would work and I pray to God that it would work otherwise I will be on a very bad future regarding my well-being. I do not know but I cannot even cry about it and don't also want to even think about it.

I am steaming furious about what is happening to my body. Just imagine being costed with not a small amount of money but still having a lot of pain. So much so that I am still forced to take some pain relievers which I regret because of its ill-effects for a long-term use. But I have to take both my parathyroid, phosphate binder, and the NSAID pain medication just in order for me to get some easement on my pain issues so that when I get out from my bed just to take a bath I would have more fluidity in my movements otherwise I will be in a mournful amount of pains.

I just wished that I wasn't born at all than to get some taste of life and then presented with hell on earth type of life without the flames. I know that our lives here on earth are just temporary but it is like an eternity if you are living in such a way that it is like a torture both financially, physically, mentally, and all the lys out there.

I am just glad that there are fiends online that helps me particularly here on steem community whether it maybe from kind words and prayers to financial, all I appreciate my friends, thank you and God will repay you.

Indeed it is really hard to live like this and I rather not to exist than to experience pain most of my life. It is also sad and depressing that some people treats me differently because of my appearance, I guess that it is the norm and I just have to accept that fact of life. That is why I value more the people that is loving me because of the person behind this uninteresting body.

Last night I wanted to just cry but no tears came out from my eyes, maybe I already am immune to my condition but I wasn't feeling well as the dialysis had taken out most of the pain reliever's effect on my body so I am in pain. So today I just have to take some so that I could again feel some kind of good and lasting relief.

Sill I am afraid of my future, so many what if's in my thoughts, so much probability that things may not realize than what I am expecting and hoped for to happen. I do not know if I could even accept the fact that my case is a hopeless medical case and I just have to go on a hospice care. I am just crazy enough to just make myself think that there is still hope but in reality doctors doesn't even want to handle my case as it is too great for their capacities or they are mostly incompetent enough in this country to handle my condition, I think both reasons.

But as long as I could survive and can do it I will do in the best of my abilities with the help of God then I will just continue and man it up because it is just the right thing for me to do.

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