Dear Diary: I Don't Want My Photo In My Funeral To Be Posted When I Die
Here in my country when you die the funeral services will ask for your photo from your relatives and they will post it in front of your home just to let anyone who had died. I mean that would be okay for me but for my current appearance to be used and posted is not a thing that I will not like even though the fact that I am dead already by then.
That is why I asked my mother for her not to give such photos to the funeral services, but she said that she will give the best photo that I had which is before my face got deformed by my Leontiasis condition.
I also asked my mother to put a surgical mask on me and to shut my mouth because the inflamed gums always makes it to gape wide open always even though you put a handkerchief around my jaw and head.
I really do not want a wake, I do not even want funeral parlors to touch my body for that matter because the way they butcher bodies in the embalming process is really not pleasant to see as they cut you from neck to navel and taking off the internal organs, cleaning and soaking them in formaldehyde before placing them back in and sewing you all up again.
I also do not want to get buried underground because it frightens me with that idea because if you could imagine yourself trapped in a casket is really a phobic scenario. Well if I would be buried I want to be just above ground in a concrete crypt where someday it will crack open and I would come out to meet the Lord Jesus above.
I know it is silly for me to think about these things even though I would never cared for anything after my death but I can extend my will even after my death because of the unusual circumstances that happened to me lately here. It all just came to my mind after seeing the wake of my deceased friend which had been in dialysis for 12 years, may she rest in peace.
It's hard to read your post. It's interesting to hear the perspective of death from someone who knows they're going to die soon and nothing can stop it. Most people don't even think about death. More likely, they're thinking about money or love or how they hate their job. I was wondering @cryptopie. Do you have a bucket list? You know.... A list of things you want to do before you die? For example, swimming with dolphins or eating tuna cheek meat.
Just because your friend died, doesn't mean you're next. You could have five or ten more years left! Please cheer up. Just remember, the mind and brain are two of the strongest muscles we have.
If you keep thinking about it, it'll happen way~ much too soon. They did a science experiment here in Korea awhile back. A Korean woman planted two seeds of the same kind and they sprouted because she watered them. She kept them in the same room with the same conditions.
Every day, she would whisper to each one. To the first plant, she would whisper, "I love you, I love you, I love you." To the second plant, she would whisper, "I hate you, I hate you, I hate you."
The first plant grew really tall and even bloomed a beautiful flower. The second plant died and never made it past the second or third stage of its growth. Amazingly enough, words are a very strong tool. And if your brain is telling that to you, try not to listen to it too much. It could harm you.
Listening to Christian music could be good. I like Hillsong. Or, watching or listening to Joel Osteen is a wonderful way to train your mind. You got to find other ways to keep your mind preoccupied.
I do understand about hiding your face thing. Your mom should find the best picture she has of you. What about cremation?
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Hi @gungho I can't help but to think about dreaded things sometimes because of what I feel with my body so I just put them in writing like now.
I don't have much of a plan but to save some money and to try to achieve my medical goals if feasible. I know in the back of my mind that I can never get into my goals but it is a good thing to hope.
Yes I am just trying to keep a positive outlook but if you are not breathing easy you are always dragged down to negative emotions. There are too many things that really keeps me from being cheery so it is just good that I have something like this community where I can speak to someone without tiring myself in talking with my mouth.
Internet is the way I am keeping myself preoccupied including watching and listening to movies and music online. I am basically physically handicapped so non-strenuous hobbies are just the things that i can do plus the thanksgiving viewing that I do every Thursday, it uplifts my spirits when I listen to the preaching and bible-related consultations.
It hurts my heart to know you are thinking of things like this. God bless you @cryptopie 💜
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