Dear Diary: I Don't Feel Good With My Heart Lately
Last year I thought that my heart would fail because of its heartbeat which had gotten irregular at that time which made me feel light-headed, it was in the month of December 2017.
That incident frightened me because I do not know what to expect and I thought I really might die that instance. I then thought about my portfolio if who will be able to utilize it after my time, but then I thought I will be dead anyway so why do I care? LOL.
Seriously I do not want to die slowly, I want it to go fats and me not knowing about it, I want to die on my sleep. But it seems it will not happen because I am always awake or maybe it will if my heart would give up on me.
I just remembered our neighbor years ago who requested his blood pressure taken a reading with our digital blood pressure monitor. It is because I heard his heartbeat and it was irregular and is skipping beat similar to what I am experiencing right now.
He died a few months after so that thing really had struck on me that maybe it will also be my time a few months or weeks also from now. It is not the death that I am afraid of but really is the suffering prior. Maybe it is the reason that I am not dead yet though, because I am afraid the prelude to death.
Keep on keeping on. Finish the Race my friend. Whether that be in 30 days or 30 years. We're all dying. Some sooner than others
I find so much inspiration in your Fight and Grit. Be rest assured you have a strong Legacy cemented here at Steemit and nothing will ever change that
Yes Sir, It is a hard fight but I will still press on with my life.
Hang in there @cryptopie, My wife has irregular heart flutter's and I thank God she is still here..... I think just maybe he wants you here for now!
Hi @silvertop I hope that your wife would fully recover. My brother also had a heart issue with coronary artery thing, he said that medicines made his heart well now but he had undergone a stent procedure.
Thank you @cryptopie, We both keep you in our prayer’s. My wife has had this for a while, she had a heart monitor for a while and then the flutter stopped 🙃
Then it returned..... sometimes when we hike It will take her breath away..... then it’s OK. Even when she was in the hospital a couple of years ago for a very bad cat bite blood infection it would show up on the monitor and then go back to normal... I hope our hiking keeps her strong, and I hope God watches over you as well 👍
I think I can understand the way you feel. When my moms health was getting worse and worse, she knew that she might die but she still stayed strong and kept the will to live and stayed positive. It wasn't until there was absolutely no way she was going to survive that she accepted that it was time. It's still kind of hard to deal with her departure but that's just me being selfish as no one can truly control other peoples life path. Just stay positive because you just never know what may happen to your health in the future...
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I am sorry about your Mom's passing, it is hard to lose a loved one.
But losing my life really is better for my lovedones I reckon because I am really such a drag and I can't do anything about it.
Still I am striving just to make things better for me and my parents. @theb0red1
I hope you will feel better soon!!
Thank you @flipstar
God Bless you.