It's harder for you and me, in Europe, earning a few STEEM a post won't help us survive. Still, in the end, we will experience the riches, the relief, the difference it will make when the prices go up.

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I don't know you well, but I read and I feel like you're experience a long long road of disappointments and failures or things that fail you, and you're tired and feel like there's no end to it.

I know this feeling. I know me saying 'don't give up it will be better' sounds overly superficial in times like these. I still hope you want to see it, you want to believe things will be better, that's the most important thing.

Take care @hitmeasap, take care of you first, do the thing you think is not 'wise' but is the thing you know you need. Like take a semester off to walk around a forest for a few weeks or whatever. As I said, I don't know you, so I can't advise you. But it's often the thing that's in the back of your mind whispering to you 'If only I could... for a while...' that you should do to recharge, let some stuff go, get some strength for the challenges to come.

I always want to say more if I see someone suffer, but it's hard to say the right thing anyway, let alone digitally to someone I've never met. I mean well. Hope you'll soon see some light at the end of the tunnel.