Lately, I've been acutely aware of the pain I caused others, yet I often point to my childhood as the root and namely blame my mother for the way I am. So true that we need to forgive ourselves and move forward. Identifying with much of what you wrote about. ❤
Thank you @snowpea. I've also had a horrible relationship with my mother. A few months ago I finally let go of that resentment and it was a big step in the right direction for me.