Who is with me?
I am, Queen! 🖤
I've been trying to stay away from the dark the last couple of weeks, been trying to keep my mind away of the things I shouldn't be thinking and let myself to move on. During daytime I win, I work, I cook, I do chores, I do crafts, I try to write when my mind cooperates - anything to keep me from thinking. But it's the nights that make it harder, when your head touches the pillow and it's dark all around you, then you have nothing to distract you (shitty candy crush saga game only gives you 5 lives to waste and they are not enough). Thank God I have my sweetheart's arms to cry the pain away. It helps, just being there saying nothing.
Stay safe!
Nights are always the hardest on my end too. When the kids disappear in duvets and I have a cold bed to go home to. They beam with loneliness and emptiness that somehow complements the overthinking. I am trying to stay sane more than anything :)