I fought back the urge to contradict her. To let the dam holding back my feelings crumble and give way, but I couldn’t.

Im speechless! Oo, she is in bed with him. This whole sexual act between Helper and him was...at least for Helper. I can tell he wants to reject her, or does he? But at the same time he doesn’t want to hurt her. Fortunately Madeline came just in time.