Am I Losing My Mind? - Drunken Thoughts #3

redbeardguy (53)in #writing • 8 years ago

What's up gang?

I am actually fucking wasted right now. I have been drinking since 11 am and I am feeling it. I should cut back on the booze, but there's always a reason to drink.

Fortunately, I had anice company to drink with, having interesting conversations, so it was worth it.

Whenever I Drink I Feel One With The Universe

I am probably the only functioning alcholic (not really) who is not drinking to forget or ease the pain. I like to drink because it makes me appreciate people and life in general. Right now, I feel love and gratitude for my life and the people in my life. Rarely I can feel this is such a tangible way.

After the 6th or 7th glass of whiskey things start to get downhill. My mind starts slipping and creating thoughts on its own. I start to lose control of my conscious stream. Questions like "What's the meaning of life", lose their usual significance in my mind and I feel like I already have the answer, though I forget it when I wake up.

When I am drunk, I don't shout or sing, I contemplate and think. I had have the greatest philosophical conversations when I was drunk. Most of it doesn't make sense, unless you're equally wasted. I suspect that people have already figured out the meaning of life, but they were too drunk to remember it.

Shit, I write sentences and I forget them the next second. Does any of it make sense? I am wasting valueble bandwith lmao.

Don't Forget To Have Fun

Most people work 9-5 and then rot in their house alone. Go out. Have fun. I am not saying get stupid drunk, but loosen up. Don't be socially retarded. Books won't teach you how to have fun. Fuck everything and just indulge for a day.

Sure, I am biased because my head is spinning, but the experiences I accquire don't compare with any high leven university education. We create powerful bonds.

Damn, I can't continue. I should stop before I make a fool of myself. Cheers and have a great night or morning.

-Thatredbeardguy