Last night while trying to sleep I wondered if I was really doing something to change the world or to make it a better place, my current situation has not allowed me to pursue the career I studied for so many years, with which I had the crazy idea of ​​helping the planet; as if that could be done by someone alone; The truth is that little by little I have understood that we must be a whole and that teamwork is essential, now well; the country where I find myself is like being locked in a well where uncertainty eats you day by day and leaves you tied up, locked up in your house; How can I make a difference in the world ?, That's what I asked myself last night and if I was wasting my time, which I see happening every day with the arrival of the nights; I dedicated this year to rest after receiving my degree, and the truth I never thought that I would be so bored. Many people do it for the desire to make that rest, I did the truth for other needs; more economical and to wait for the right moment to emigrate from #Venezuela question that every day I think more, and it hurts me to think about leaving my city, my family; but I think that in a certain way the wait has made me strong; This year I have traveled and rested maybe I have not done much for others but for me, which I think is infinitely necessary.

Last night while I was thinking, I imagined doing what I dreamed, working in an organization that helps the environment, in some important business improving their processes, doing anything that makes me happy and not stuck in my house, thinking about the uncertainty of tomorrow, helping my family who needs it so much; but the wait is killing me, I have told you that I am waiting for some documents that will allow me to go to another country a little more legal; but this is not relevant. ** Last night ** I felt sad, because I know I have so much to give to the world, and I am in a certain way wasting it; then I thought more deeply and the truth is that no, the truth is that I think that this has to be the case, and I; Through this blog I have written everything for what I am able to fight, I have shown writings about the environment, I have shown the world through my eyes the reality of my country, so in a certain way if I am doing something, I am informing, I'm learning to express myself much better, I'm learning to let off steam, and I think that in a certain way this is something that is not so important in a certain way if it makes a difference, because writing, expressing and telling the truth is about heroes and brave.

Last night, maybe last night I felt discouraged for a moment, then I remembered that I have written about my country, about the world, I have been a window for many people who do not know what happens in other countries like Venezuela , in a certain way I have helped my family economically as far as I can, I must accept that it is frustrating not being able to do something else, something that really has a much stronger impact, but I have been and always will be a person with free verses, because it does not matter how imprisoned I am in this country for the moment, it does not matter if I'm cut off by the electrical system, it does not matter if I'm cut off from the Internet or I only have two meals in my stomach, I think it's always through my computer that no longer gives for more ... I will always tell the truth.

And even if I keep quiet and try to shut up, I know there will always be a way to shout to the world to open their eyes, and for me that is making a difference, for me this is creating, for me the world puts us in different circumstances that make us grow more and value what we have, value what we can do no matter how small, so last night while I could not sleep; I snuggled up and thought that if I'm doing something, I'm changing the world of little people who read me, maybe my way of expressing revolutionary ideas to many, make them believe more in themselves, I do not know; the only thing I know is that in such an unequal world, in a world where many people cover their eyes and ears so as not to see or hear, in a world where many people turn their backs on you, there are small people who are an illuminated window of ideas, truth and facts that even if they want to cover with a finger they can never be hidden.

I discovered a passion that I had left forgotten in my adolescence, the passion to write, the passion to express myself through lyrics, the passion to reach some people who want to read about what happens this time in a corner of South America, who want to read about my experiences, and who enjoy the reflections I do, so yes; I managed to sleep with a smile on my face because I realized that if I'm making a difference.

@raquel.ramirezv