@nmalove i just felt i wanted to read your next post...i didnt even know i was going to read this. I like your post, you know why?
You have expressed yourself and poured out your heart. Thats the beginning of totally getting over it.
I also like the fact that you were able to recognise red flags.
Please do not blame yourself or feel bad, be glad it didnt last for too long. And of course you are bold, strong and lovable so don't give up on love. Seriously don't give up on love....