Diary of A Modern Man: Entry #15 (Powerup Post)

Thursday 27th April - The Diary of A Modern Man.

Alas, I am in a pensive mood tonight, I long for a relationship yet I shy away from the idea of committing to any of the girls with which I am currently acquainted. Whilst I don't consider myself a shallow person, the few girls that spark an emotional or mental fire within me fail to inspire the same physical response. Unfortunately, the reverse occurs too.

It has been a few days now since I last spoke to Emma. I must admit I miss it. She seems able to make me laugh but also hold up her end of an intellectual conversation. True depression occurs with the fact that I remain unwilling to suffer a long-distance relationship; making the whole debate meaningless.

I am genuinely worried that I have assigned to love too great a criteria for any girl to ever fulfil. Emma is a perfectly acceptable girl for me however, disregarding the notion of a long-distance relationship, I feel as if my pedanticism stops me from truly realising this. I even believe that if there does exist a girl which meets my criteria, and even if I am fortunate enough that our paths cross, I would be in no way appealing for her as I am.

The true hypocrisy here is that, despite acknowledging that I am this way and she would have to accept that, I still expect her to be perfect.

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