october sombre (list)
- we are living in an increasingly pervasive world whereby globalization should be termed "globaltimasation" as everything happens at the same time everywhere. it takes away a certain sacred magic of diversity, and moments belonging to that one split second, in that one place. is it becoming more salient now to find a balance between this plugged-in reality which we live in and what seems like a long-gone spirituality which our past held dearly? do we have to make an extra effort in treasuring and preserving it or is this only a natural course of evolution?
- i've been feeling rather apathetic for the past few weeks. not that it's that terrible of a thing as this stupor usually catapults you into the light as we are quite uncomfortable in darkness. not to say it was an absolute darkness kind of situation, rather, grayness. that's where it becomes stagnant. lack of boundaries and compulsion. swimming in grayness: what do we really want? should we follow societal norms and pressures, or follow your dreams? hmm... certain events caused by my lack of caution induced some rather unfortunate instances. we have to remember to stay alert in this dog-eat-dog world, while not succumbing to its capacity in usurping your faith in the universe, in yourself. what matters is that you learn each time after each fall. get back up, be better, and don't stop believing.
- can facebook conversations ever get too heavy? they live in a dimension that lacks gravity, only a point. but that's where we are conceived, no? a point that turns into a line that turns into block that turns into something we can feel. all these debris floating on my mind, trying to assemble themselves into a coherent philosophical mass. what do i know about anything? i long to engage in deep conversations with people who want to share their innermost doubts, fears and questions. in this age of over-sharing of trivial (are they?) matters, what do we really know about each other? it seems those hedonistic days are slowly drifting away, i can touch them yet i want changes. i'm on my little raft, lost at sea, yet i know i won't drown. solitude is beautiful and honest. you become more aware. everybody seems to get sucked into a bubble. am i the only one here?
- my compulsive smoking habit is getting worse. perhaps these little rolled up tobacco are my conversational partners, every single one lit up, my lungs get comforted and choke on a bit of life. does this place reek of irony? this trip might be one big fat ironic joke. don't ever lose your sense of humor and get a tumor.
- thoughts are powerful. they have a certain desire to be liberated. my neurons are recovering, from its past excess. those delighted sparks i don't regret, as they taught me more about our perceived reality. we all have an intuition, a sense that our existence is rather fantastical. but we forget, we create our own material traps. relax. paranoia is simply ignorance. i will follow our current paradigm to gain a better understanding before i rise above you. let us not disappoint those blasted neurons, because they were magnificent and pure. they knew nirvana is possible.
wake.
up.
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