90 Day Challenge - Confessions of a Quitter - Day 18

Sometimes with this 90 day challenge I just want to quit. The only thing stopping me is the statement my friend stated to my face that the reason for my lack of success was because I wasn't consistent. Au contraire mon ami! You are mistaken, for quitting is the one thing I was consistent at! It has been said that in order to change things in your life you need to change things in your life. Sounds really simple but if it was that easy everybody would be evolving. That statement was not meant to be an excuse just stating a fact. It is true that the simplest things can become the most complex.

The first excuse that comes to mind is that I can't think of anything to write. I struggle daily with what value I can share with you the reader. My insecurities rise up and try to drown me enough so that I will quit. I am reading this amazing book called "Ask and it will be given" by Jerry and Ester Hicks and they have some amazing processes which can aid with the stinking thinking. One certain process was talking about adjusting your current reality to one that is more positive. When I first read the concept my mouth just dropped for a light went off in my head. Often we psych ourselves out because we tell ourselves that a huge realization or shift must be made in order for there to be change. All that does is set us up for failure. What I understood was to try to do a small shift into a newer perspective or mind space.

In my financial life I have created a lot of stressful situations. My go-to response is to look at a bill and freak out at how I am going to get the money. My stomach starts to clench up and my throat constricts until there are tears in my eyes and I can't talk. Images of all these disasters flash through my head and before you know it I'm picturing all these awful things and potential outcomes. Which is complete lunacy for rarely does anything happen anywhere close to those thoughts. So when I received a gas bill that was twice the amount of last month the similar feelings came again. This time I stopped and looked to see if by chance I forgot to pay last month's bill. As it turned out this was simply the increase in gas usage since the weather turned colder. Soon the familiar feelings surrounding finances started to fester but this time I remembered about the process about changing your reality. I had been told that worrying was negative goal setting yet I did this all the time. No wonder my financial life never changed for I kept using the same pattern; see a financial concern and panic. Imagine all the negative thoughts sent out with this constant worrying! How would anything change if I didn't change that? What I never seemed to remember is that I never have lost anything and money has always seemed to show up when I needed it. Times may have never been easy but they have been managed.

This time during the dawn of the panic attack, I decided to shift ever so slightly. Instead of allowing the panic to completely take over I told myself that this pattern never produced anything positive. Just the recognition of the pattern was sufficient enough of a change to start the transformation. Even if someone shifts only one degree it totally changes their future trajectory. Two people can walk along a line and if the person on the right shifts just one degree over eventually there will be separation; it may take awhile but it will happen. Yes it may seem like nothing has changed with such a slight shift but before long you do separate yourself from the original path. What lends to us wanting to quit is the lack of recognition of the progress either from us or others with such a small change. What will become evident is what happens the next time you are confronted with the feelings of quitting. Do you remain on the path of the 1 degree shift or do you slide back into the original rut? Believe me at times it is so easy to want to slip back but my life won't change if I do. That statement in itself is the most powerful and motivating for doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results does create insanity. So what happens? In the midst of wanting to quit another article is born and I remain in the 1 degree lane and away from the rut. Can it be as simple as that? We will find out.

Today the answer for how I can change just 1 simple degree will present itself so that I can be all that I can be.