Graduation So What

on a bitter wednesday three months ago we had a graduation ceremony. that was the time we had been waiting for, after suffering and struggling for four years in the college. black togas and funny hats are worn, graduates are happy, families are proud. names are mentioned one after one, to get their graduation certificate. but not with me.

sometimes before, I already realized that I had finished. my (bachelor's) study had just finished. I wasn't student anymore. I was wondering what I would become. I knew, more responsibilities were coming. Ready or not, I should be.

boys and girls are happy to take each other's photographs. I dunno what they really feel but they really look happy. I hid my anxiety. I pretended to smile. My friends are here. I should not look sad. This is graduation, after all.

and yeah, the worries have come to be true. some time after the so called graduation party, there was a job fair. you know what, it looked more like a sea of people than a fair. the queue was so long. they all have one 0ne purpose that day : to enter the fair and hopefully get a job from that.

graduation is not that cool. not that happy. not that exciting.

but I had had a plan long before. I want to continue learning. As my academic advisor and thesis supervisor  suggested "long-life learning". yeah, getting bachelor's degree isn't enough. PhD I'm coming.