How about taking some pictures/video to document what is going on where you live? I think a lot of people would be more likely to help you in a project like that than by having you write how bad things are out there to then ask for upvotes. We don't want you to endanger yourself further though, be careful. Some of us are wishing you well and very confused about what's going on. You have a chance to tell your story uncensored on steemit to help us understand.