Your story seems pathetic but not really. The problem is your mindset for joining steemit is to come and make money. The expectation is so high that even when you get a token, I doubt if you will appreciate it. But then, ask yourself, how much are you really making for liking and commenting on people's posts on Instagram, whatsapp or even Facebook...oh all you do on these platforms is to enjoy yourself. Well, if you transfer the same feeling here, you will not only enjoy yourself but get rewarded for it too.
You see, it may take time or some tasks but I promise myself that everything good will come in this shade. Just calm!
However, I will advise that you meet people who are making it well on steemit to enlighten you more on how to explore it. Relax and enjoy yourself and everything good will come. I am a living testimony