I can't presume to be able to teach you anything. I've always abided by the old Socrates saying "The only thing I know is that I know nothing". But having said that I have been studying zen half my life, and many of those years under a zen monk in Japan, so if you have any questions or concerns about your practice, I'd be happy to help if I could. If you ever want to message me on iMessage, [email protected] should go through (I think), or I'm probably the only David LaSpina on FB, or at least the only one from Indiana.