Too Much Choice
I don't really know how it happens.
I mean – in some sense I'm aware; I know days are passing – one, then two, then 5 – without the stirring of inspiration to draft a post.
It's not for lack of content. In fact, my problem is generally quite the opposite; I have far too much to draw from. I'm sure to some that may sound boastful or silly, but it's really just a microcosm of my life.
For as long as I can remember, I've struggled with a certain paralysis that comes from too much choice. How could I ever have expected my Steemit experience to be any different?
Not Enough Time
The first issue is only compounded by the second. It's infinitely harder to choose when my hours feel so full of obligation.
I also struggle with time-management. I work for myself – here, in my tiny home – and I'm a pretty shitty boss.
Though I've tried for years, I have a really hard time creating and sticking to a healthy, structured schedule. So I work for hours on end, often forgetting to eat, frequently working well past midnight – which just screws up the next day...causing the pattern to continue.
Especially, when I'm working on a project with a hard deadline, as I was just more than a week ago. My life becomes entirely consumed by whatever it is I'm focused on finishing.
Though I'm still shocked by this – I somehow managed to post at least once a day during the week of Burning Man. I was stubbornly determined to end the week with a complete set – at the very least, to have each weekday represented.
In case you missed that, here's 'Sunday' – the last post in the series – which links back to all those preceding it. If you're curious about Burning Man – I suggest you check it out. Be warned, however...it's a bit of a rabbit-hole. ;)
I can't tell you how insane I felt that week – working for at least 10 hours each day on video-editing (I'm not the fastest editor!) then scrambling to publish that day's photo set before midnight. However impressed I might be for having made it happen, it also completely drained me.
There are two posts that were meant to come at the very end that I simply couldn't get to. I still intend to post them, as they're basically the most meaningful for me, but I just couldn't do it while also finishing that video for Steem Monsters.
About That Video
Unless you've been hiding under a rock for the last 3 months, I'm sure you're aware of Steem Monsters – that wildly popular trading card game that has kind of taken over Steemit.
While I can't claim to be the most enthusiastic of fans (I'm just not much of a gamer), I am quite happy to be part of the team.
I've been working on designing the Campaign Book for a couple months now, but I set that aside to focus entirely on producing/creating a video for our Kickstarter campaign, which just launched last week.
I'm super proud of that video. It presented quite the challenge – working with someone across a continent was a new experience for me. I wasn't able to just pop in there with my gear and record the necessary script video. I had to make it work...rather, I had to make @aggroed work with me. I'm rather particular – he was exceptionally patient with me!
I also taught myself how to do animations. I'm not sure why it took me so long, but the inspiration to make a splintered mandala become whole (for the intro) was enough impetus to make me finally open up Adobe After Effects. Gotta love adding new tools to the belt!
Amazingly, just one week after launching, the campaign is already fully funded! We actually surpassed our goal last night. That's a really good feeling!
A Whole Lotta Nothin'
All that to say – I've been a wee bit too exhausted to make myself post.
That often happens after I deliver a finished product to a client – I kinda collapse for a few days.
In most cases, I have to avoid my laptop for at least 24 hours, if not longer. It's not just a break...it's a crucial decompression. Even on a physical level, I have to allow my eyes, wrists and back to recuperate. Too many consecutive hours at my desk is not good for my system.
Stepping away for a bit is the only way I can then dive back in – as I'm doing now. But it still may be a minute before I can muster the kind of energy required to draft an actual post.
This...this, is just a long winded, tangential explanation of why my blog has been so quiet; a rather substance-less post about not posting.
Until next time...
xo • zippy