EMPOWERMENT WITHIN UNDERSTANDING DISAPOINTMENT
Before continuing with part 2 in the Disapointment series - I wanted to take a moment to highlight an intersting point:
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how the manifestation of "disapointment" manifests within myself as an experience.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the tendency within myself to hide from the experience of disapointment within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing mysef for creating a preference towards 'not liking' to define and articulate the experiences within myself that are uncomfortable.
*I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that i've had many disapointments reoccur in my life as a result of not being completely honest with myself in identifying and defining the specifics of the experience for myself. I realize taking the time to articulate the specifics of my experiences is a practical way to stand one and equal within myself - realizing myself as both the author and authority of myself here.
I realize, understand, and know that I am 100% responsible for the experience of myself from moment to moment - and my effectiveness in caring for myself in the moment and so to my world is a result of and as my self-honesty with what is here.
I realize the practicality in identifiying all the little specific bits of myself that come up as the experiences of myself from moment to moment - i realize I can learn much about myself and so to others in investigating the specifics of myself from moment to moment.
I realize "Disapointment" isn't something to be reactive to and it's not designed to be a polarized thing that is just so bad. I realize "disapoinment" is so much so a practical check point in learning.
I realize "disapointment" isn't something to hide from or to try and avoid. In fact, by understanding the specifics of "disapointment" and what is upsetting and or sad - growth, learning and expansion is possible.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the experience of disapointment within myself. I forgiving myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify coping and compensating with disapointment as a form of suppression. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fast I tend to move towards suppression when and as I experience discomfort within myself.
Solution Oriented Living
When and as I experiencing disapointment - I stop and breathe. I allow myself to be honest about the specifics of my disapointment. I realize and understand that it is OK for me to be disapointed for a moment. That it's OK to be Sad for a moment. I realize it's in fact necessary to be clear about what is disapointing and sad - i realize it's in being clear with myself on what comes up within me that enables me to make best accommodations for myself in how i tend to my needs from moment to moment. I realize "disapointment" is part of the learning process and that when and as I take the time to understand what is upsetting, I am taking the first steps to actually prevent continued disapointment for myself and so to the world as an extension of myself - Here.
I commit myself to learning to enjoy my disapointments as part of the learning process - where it becomes like a game to identify the specifics of my disapointment and to use that as like a stepping tone of growth in perspective and and perception - to expand in my awareness of what it means to stand one and equal Here.
I commit myself to being OK and cool with sharing my stories of Disapointment and Sadness.
I commit myself to letting go of the idea and belief that it is not cool to express "disapointment" or "sadness" and that these are things that should be mostly hidden and kept to yourself. I realize this is a dimension of vulnerability that is integral to our human utmost potential.
I commit myself to letting go of reactions to others who I experience as "harsh" and "cold" and "insensitive" when I open myself up in vulnerability and my words/actions cause reaction in those around me. I realize it's a ridiculous thing to take offense/defense to those around me who are reacting to me - i realize it is my self-responsibility to stand as the anchor of support for myself and so to others in my reality who are unable to stand within the point for themselves. I realize when and as I react - that there's a part of me that is not yet anchored in stability and the reaction works like an 'indicator of instability' and supports me to see my instability - make the necessary 'fine-tuning' and so I re-fine my approach and expand my outlook and my overall regards here.
I am grateful to utilize words as "key" to my "best living" - realizing, understanding, and knowing that our words define our world. Self-Honesty is integral to my effectiveness in living words - I realize understand, and know it's a "process play" of "fine-tuning" in and as our "living words". *
I commit myself to playing with the principle: "Practice Perfect makes for the Perfect Practice."