Ulog #12: Let Me Just Vent Out

I woke up this morning hearing my daughter crying. I ask my husband what happen and he told me that our daughter stomach is aching. I put some Aceite Manzanilla on her stomach and she wants me to rub her stomach, I think that can make her calm and ease some pain. And I tried making her drink stomach ache medicines but she don't want. Even if I restrained her with my arms she didn't drink it.

I just feel down and a little bit disappointed because my husband keep on saying that "Kung hindi ko na lang daw sinama kahapon sa lakad ko, hindi sana sasakit ang tyan". I feel like crying on blaming me this time. Who's mother let her child feel that pain and let them hurt? Who is that mother who would like to experience it and be ill. There's none. I just want to vent out what Im feeling right now. It seems that I am a "Pabayang Ina" or a neglectful mother.

I am doing my best for my child then at the same their questioning what I am doing for my child. That makes me cry but I don't want to let them see that I am crying, that's why I am just writing this as my #ulog for today. I hope after writing this post, this makes me feel better. Because I have no one to talk here right now. While writing this some @teardrops dropping from my eyes. I am with my daughter in our room. Thanks to God that her stomach is now okay. And she stops from crying now but still she look tired from crying earlier. Good thing she ask also for her breakfast, because a while ago she don't want to eat or drink her milk.

My heart is heavy seeing my child in pain but still there are also blaming you. Even if they don't said it, I can feel it.

Thanks sir Terry @surpassinggoogle for having this #ulog. By this I can vent out what I am feeling this morning and lessen my heavy heart. Eventhough I am not crying this helps me feeling better. Crying makes me feel better but this #ulog thing helps me more. Here I can pour all my disappointments. Thank you for this Sir Terry. Just keep on inspiring us.

This will be all for today. Have a great day everone.

Evony
@lunamystica
May 19, 2018

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