For the past few days I have been feeling lazy which I think was caused by the feeling of disconyentment and passionless. Thoug& I have escaped from the toxic environment of my previous job, I have found that I still did not find my passion. To be honest my passion is writing bit it has been drained out by the temporary job that I have now. The job that Im doing to fill my pockets at the moment is writing guidelines for university students in enabling them to do their assignments. After doing them I found myself having no more intetest in writing anything else, not even a blogpost.
So these days I found myself very lazy and is frustrated about it. I keep wondering wjat should I do and would procraatinate in doing my job becauae I juat don't like it.
Through these experiences I found out that if we do not have a purpose in our luves wether short or long term purposes, we would just be waddling through it, and the older we get, the more we feel like we need to find a purpose. I could no longer imagine myself idling like in my teen years. In those years we always think that we have a lot of days ahead of us, but now in my 30 year of age I just founs that the days are getting shorter and shorter. The time limit thag has been placed in all of us suddenly felt more real and I dont know what to do with it.