Wow this is one emotional post to read. That's so terribly sad that you lost both of them, and I feel some kind of guilt in your words because you didn't see the sad emoji in time. But if you blame yourself, you shouldn't. From what I can read here, you were one hell of a good friend, and I think you can be proud of the times that you talked Laura out of her plans to kill herself. Take care, I hope you got through the day .. <3