That's a wonderful read @porters, a different perspective making me think about this whole subject. Yes as we near death the consciousness awakens more and more and we realize how we have shaped up our life with our actions. There are so many factors controlling our life. As children we have no or very little control over our life and what happens at that stage of our life decides our personality and character. As we grow up the personality and the character decides our type of actions and behavior. It is all a vicious circle. As we mature we start realizing that so much of drama is not required and we start moving towards simplicity, i.e. if the realization comes through.