Beauty and tragedy go hand-in-hand, sometimes. You had a beautiful and amazing day, and saw many wonderful sights! It is so sad how things ended, and that a man lost his life. Whether it was intentional or an accident, it is tragic. But all the things you felt about it, and the disruption and inconvenience, are all normal aspects of the human condition. It’s good that you have reflected on the life lost, amidst the challenges it caused your family that day. But don’t let it tear at you. Maybe meditate a bit on a wish for him in his life beyond this one we know, as a way to heal from the experience.