Buenos Aires.. solo for a month.. let's see what happens...
I'm normally a pretty gregarious and obnoxiously social guy. But I see now... that it's mainly due to certain security blankets... like a friend around or access to a quick uber departure.
However, I decided to travel solo for the first time, 7000 miles from home, for a month in a country that speaks English worse than I speak Spanish (Which is horrifically).
Buenos Aires! For some reason a dream of mine for the last decade... I blame Tim Ferriss.
I land and feel like my belongings should be permentely etched to my balls.. away from prying hands. Apparently there are thieves here.. some with knives and also ATM kidnappers! A micro adventure where the kidnappers take you on a tour of the city empting your bank accounts with the max limit at each ATM. My friends and family have repeatedly told me the ominous tales.
The paranoid part of me started stirring... I didn't care I was being massively ripped off getting a taxi to my airbnb. I needed to get there... My trezor had slipped the authorities, I was IN and needed to store that shit safely!
Many people who have travelled solo love to reminisce about how amazing it was.. in the end... forgetting to mention the complete loneliness and anxiety they felt the first few days. At home I can jump into a club and talk to anyone, here I feel lost, away from the familiar, scared to venture out.
Why the fuck did I do this?
I don't know anyone here and... also I may be stabbed for shits and giggles over a few pesos :o
With a whole raft of anxieties and second guessing I decided to hole myself up in my apartment for a couple of days and reflect on life. I was also being a huge vagina.
Now I'm here writing this, terrified but also excited. I know I'm scared, I know why, I also know how to fix it. So I'll be going to a house party tonight to meet a ragtag group of travellers from the site 'internations'. Then starting a Spanish school in a few days. Hashtag Yolo?
It's scary, I'm out of my comfort zone, maybe I should have dipped my toe in the water before jumping in the deep end? Fuck it...Time to hustle up some adventures.
To be continued...