Thanks for sharing this very personal note. I definitely relate to this desire to create work that is wholly your own and not driven or commissioned by someone else. I wish you the best in finding what you're looking for! I really believe Steemit is one of the main avenues for getting artists like us to that level of creative independence we're seeking. Looking forward to seeing some of the projects that come out of these new explorations!
Many thanks @erb for your support, it means a lot coming from a fellow creative who is also working in similar paradigms as I am. May Steemit truly open the doors to creative freedom for all of us!