INTROSPECTION

So I thought I was having a bad week. After investing so much in getting a new phone and gear for my vlog I haven't gotten any dtube upvote. I guess some form of entitlement comes with being successful. I jokingly told myself that I would revert to using my old phone since that's the only thing that I have changed this week. Also, given that I have to pay back a loan I got in three weeks, that kind of triggered my anxiety.

What do I do when I get anxious?

Unlike most people when things don't go my way I tend to push further. I do not know how to give in to doubt and failure. My philosophy when its life has always been to put my best foot forward.Aim for perfection but be willing to settle for excellence. Most times it is almost impossible to keep a clear head when things aren't going your way and we let sentiments get in the way of our goal.

What is the goal?

I started blogging 7-8 months ago on steem with the aim of making some money writing short stories and poetry (haven't been doing much of that lately). However, blogging and vlogging have become my major source of income. Well, I guess for many people here steem hasn't met their expectation. However, in my case, it has surpassed it, even in this bear market and I cannot begin to imagine the possibilities when things turn around here like I hope it would.

What's the next step?

For me, it is to get better. And it has to do more about building a reputation for myself in and out of the steem ecosystem. Hopefully before the end of this year I would have sorted out most of the issues that are currently draining my earnings. This will give me the freedom to be creative again and conquer new grounds. Everything is going to happen here on steem, that's the beautiful part. It started here and hopefully, it will continue here.

What do I think about the future of steem?

Well, I'm neither optimistic or pessimistic. I feel a lot hangs in the balance. If steem should fail or succeed, it will be as a result of our actions. I have tried to narrow my view of what or who I think steem is. I will say that I am steem. I am an important part of this blockchain and whatever action I take will translate into something positive or negative for this blockchain.

The blockchain never forgets.

Sometimes I am tempted to play the game of steem. It is the easiest game to play and we all have or are still playing this game. It is not a game of merit but strategy. However, my goal and dream for myself and the steem blockchain are bigger than all the politicking, one of the reasons why I have chosen to be lone wolf, accountable only to myself (and steem).

How do I make steem better?

This is a question I ask myself every day. I'm not into coding; I do not run the blockchain, I am just a blogger. Is that even enough?

Let us have a world of ordinary people and extraordinary things will happen to you and me

Maybe all we need is people doing the best with what they having.

Despite being a loner I have been fortunate enough to meet some great people along the way and have been part of certain projects and initiatives. And that has added to my experience here.

At the end of the year, I hope to start my journey as a videographer. This will be possible because of steem. I'm chasing my dreams and making new ones every day. I have shared my ideas with a couple of persons on the steem blockchain and they've supported me in their own way.

I don't know what your experience has been on steem but mine has been great and it will only get better. I will attribute this to the fact that I have a different expectation when it comes to steem. This is not my ticket to becoming a billionaire. I have no dream of steem pumping 50x its current value, although that would be great. I just need an enabling environment to actualize my dreams and steem has given me just that. And whatever I make of this opportunity, in the end, would be plus to me and the steem blockchain. I see this as an opportunity/gift, not something I am entitled to. Probably if we all saw steem as an opportunity rather than a blockchain full of faults, corruption, etc we will make better use of it and that will translate into something meaningful for all of us. Rather than poking our noses into things that do not concern us or that are out of our control, or criticizing other people's ideas, we should support those who are actively doing positive things on the steem blockchain that interest us. Maybe we will have a better ecosystem then. Easier said than done.

I believe change is inevitable. I do not believe in stagnation. How well and far we will go, only time can tell. But if you ask me, I think we are ticking all the right boxes and that includes the things we don't agree on. It would be counterproductive if we all saw things the same way.

In conclusion, I will say I am happy with my progress on steem. I think we will get things right sooner or later. The future of steem is not solely dependent on one dapp, community, or person. That's the silver lining to all of the challenges we face currently.

Dtube video coming up in 15minutes.

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