THE DOWN MOMENTS

PIXABAY

I want to pen down something but it seems so difficult for me to put words together and form a good piece. My brain is just going into a blank mode. It can't come up with something good enough, all because of the down moments. Let me write about it, the down moments. I guess I may get the motivation to write more if I do

We are just trying to be strong even when everything isn't well. Yeah, it's the drowning moments. We woke up in the morning expecting a bright day ahead but we didn't get it, we got a heartbreaking news

You know the feeling of wasteless efforts? All the sleepless nights and starvations of your natural desires in order to get it but at the end of the day, all just washed down the drain, nothing just worked out. This is what happened to her two days back.
And yeah she felt her misery. She let the downpour from the clouds to fall freely on her she didn't even look for a shelter or she didn't want a shelter? she did see a shelter but she was so lost in her thought. All she wanted is to feel her agony and pains, bearing it all was her utmost desire. Getting cold and having a cough or flu crossed her mind but she didn't care.
Getting home she saw them all around. Yeah, she saw people, she talked to them all, gave them the warm smile. They thought she was perfectly okay not knowing that she was broken deep inside. And when she gets inside her home it dawns on her that she is all alone. She only is going to face her agony and pains. She took a step to the mirror as she looks at her face and discovers she shed tears. She thought strong women don't cry? Yeah, it was her personal motto: strong women that cry they get up and fight their challenges but here she is crying like a baby. She took her palm, reached her face and hit it so hard. It dawned on her that she just slapped herself for a reason she can't tell. Maybe because she is trying to take the blame for her pains, her pains she didn't cause or maybe because she overestimated herself to be a woman when she is only but a girl.

She slept not peacefully but quietly, hoping the next day will be better. When she woke up, she did it with so much life in her, ready to face her challenges. She met someone, a person on a normal day she won't indulge in a conversation with because she doesn't love being involved in conversations that seems worthless to her but that day all she wanted was a not too serious conversation. At the end of the conversation, she ends up being lively. Serious people don't always solve problems, she realised they are only good at giving advises and words of encouragement but cannot brighten up your day. She stepped into her room getting ready for the day and letting go of her downs. Her phone rang she did pick it up and answered the call only to receive a bad news, she has lost someone. She was so emotionless for the moment, couldn't shed a tear but her heart kept on bleeding.

PIXABAY

Even though it was so much a down moment for her. It didn't stop her from looking forward to what the rest hours of the day has in stock for her. She stepped out even though the situation isn't fair. She was good at hiding her emotions facially but this time she just couldn't. Someone told her "you look beautiful today, why don't you brighten up your face a little" . Her reply was a faint smile, a smile with tears deep inside. Her motto is to appear to be strong outside no matter what. I'm @prechyrukky and I am her.

Though it is a rough time for me. All might not be well but I know it's going to get well soon.
The few I confided in were sympathisers and encouragers, what I don't need right now because I do know and believe that the best encouragement I can get now is ME. I'm a self-motivation to myself, something I will always be proud of. Sympathy makes me sad, I wish I can get those that can take my thoughts away from it. Let just act funny without bothering about my current headaches. It's my downing moment and I sure know it won't last long.
I'm @prechyrukky and a fighter. I am no weakling and I won't let my current situation to swallow me up. I will shine out of it
The down moments don't last long. So if you are experiencing a "not-too-good" situation like me just know it will always be for a while. Get up and face life

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