Indeed, making decision is the hardest thing to do. This morning, I am very confused whether I come back to Manila or not. This plan is still 50/50 because travelling there needs a huge amount of money. The doctor said I need to come back in order to be healed. Before I travelled back home, I told her to maybe consider me for an early appointment among all patients because I travelled far away from Butuan, but she said she can't do anything about it since she's not the scheduler and there are thousands of patients they accommodate every day, so, there is no exception.
Then, I pleased the scheduler to set me an appointment to get my lab result at the date before my coming home. Instead of responding me benignly and generously, she was mad in a hostile reply. So, she scheduled me at April 24, where my stay in Manila was 12 days from March 17 until 29.
Now, I'm here in my place Butuan city. I should be relaxed to be in my comfort zone, but I'm very anxious to think my upcoming appointment in Manila to get my test result.
I still believe that for two weeks, my pieces will be recognized and God will find a way. In Rome 5:8, Jesus said He loves me in my darkest days. I know He has surprises for me before my appointment. I will shine undoubtly. Never give up as long as God is with me. I have this determined heart because He loves me and He loves you too. We are maybe a minnow, but we are whale at heart. Thank you Sir @surpassinggoogle for being my inspiration.