Oh. This is so emotional. This reminds me of the period i lost my grandma from my maternal home. I was still young then, but i was so attached to her because i had lived with for some months and we were so close to each other. When she died, i felt the pain like it was my own mother. I never had an idea on how to deal with grief then, so i just had to let it go. But, it was still thoughtful bringing this issue up as it might help someone in future.