Really glad I read this. I been wondering what you up too lately. Now I know kinda. One reason we get along so well, you like to read. I like to write. The exercise thing,,, I pulled the oL bike down fixed it up today and went riding. Should sleep well tonight. 
good...!!!!!
Awesome job Tony!! :) And yes, we're like PB and Jelly hahaa
This giving up smoking is an emotional roller coaster. I never in my life been so dismal about the world and people. I haven't been able to talk to anyone or write anything, stopped working on the bus. I've cut down dramatically but it is slowly creeping back up each day. Tomorrow I throw them again see how I go for round two. The Cravings are not so bad now and the hand thing. Habit of lighting one having one in your hand was a big part of it. Like biting nails for some people I guess, I remember breaking that habit as a kid. Was hard enough without an addiction added to it. Every time I sit in front of this screen I want one. For now this battle seems never ending. Im not real involved with things for now but had some great ideas flowing in just no action to add to them. Peace out sis.
Ugh...I'm so sorry you are going through this my brother, I can't even imagine how hard it would be, fuck, I don't want to even imagine...I start getting all tense just imagining quitting...
Bravo to you for sticking to your goal no matter how tough it gets you just get back up, dust yourself off and try again.
I know that tense feeling you talk off. Sorry for sharing it to you. It has lessened for me so im ready for round two. I am down from around 40 a day to ten and that just crept up to a few more. I was down low as three or four at first. Still haven't managed a day without yet. But im sure ten a day is way less and easier to throw than 40 a day. I could be at this a while yet. Don't hold breath waiting for the fallen soldier on this occasion. I WILL get there and catch up to you again. Everything just seems pretty fucked atm 😂to be expected I guess
10 a day is an amazing accomplishment Tony!! You're doing terrific, and never apologize for sharing with me, I'm here for you! Always!
hard stuff
I am rooting for you
It is appreciated mummabear❤️. The struggle here is very real for me and I can't stand the idea of the tax man getting so much money of me and using it for shit I don't agree with. I have to work harder to continue smoking due to the cost. I see them as the chains of slavery. I have a real thing for freedom on all levels if you haven't noticed 😈 I have my teeth in on this one and I can't let it go. I won't quit quiting till I quit them 😂
I understand totally. I am in my own war here.....day after day after day, just endless more stuff and more stuff. There is a huge dumpster on the driveway and a huge truckload of stuff was hauled away today. The huge truckload of stuff is going to a garage sale to raise cash for battered women and their shelter. It will give them clothes, books, dishes and pictures. etc. I am here till tuesday then I will come back in June. So my struggle is different but very fucking real. xx