It's hard for me to be lonely

I'm 16 years old, and you'll find that I just have hormones boiling so I decided to write to you. But honestly, I really want to talk with someone about what is happening in my heart.

It is very difficult for me now, because I have no friends and few people understand me. I just do not go for a walk with everyone (I do not like conversations and actions that people do in companies, namely smoking and alcohol), I do not just listen to rock, but I understand this direction, and even to all this I am an excellent student. Since no one noticed me, I decided to go in for sports: I started to pump the press and run, well, after 4 months the results were visible, but after that I was even more hated.

In principle, I'm not very worried about this, because I know that I'm smarter than my peers. But do you know what scares me? The fact that I grow up and become a careerist, so hard that I will forget how to feel.

I already notice that I am becoming a cynic, I do not believe in love at first sight, in loyalty, in the idyll of marriage, and in general that there is someone who will just love me. I'm very lonely. I want to find myself a friend. For now, I decided to cry on this site, because I can not keep everything in myself anymore.