Just a thought that when confronted by matters of prison sentence knowing that you'll be in a cage I can only assume that flashbacks were coming and going about yourself from past to present to future at that one moment.

My thoughts if it was me , I would simply describe a grandfather clock ticking backwards and seeing every moment of my existence come to a halt.
So could you say that it will be different here on in or does your assumptions and eagerness to relive that moment is somewhere along the crossroads waiting to be crossed... I wonder...?