Middle Aged and no where to go in the New World High Tech Order

I am a 53-three old male. I now live in Jerusalem, but I was born and raised in Los Angeles, California. it's difficult for me to even imagine my chronological age, especially seeing that I sound and look like a man half my age. On the other hand I have seen a lot in my life go by.

When I was 4 years old, Los Angeles, television was in black and white. I believe we started getting coloured only in 1970. We only had 12 TV stations (The local ABC, CBS and NBC).The rest were local channels. There were no PC'S or any other gadgetries even resembling what is most people's homes today. Milk was delivered with the help of the then "milk man" and there was a diaper service (I believe they came once a week or something like that). When he came, they would remove the dirty ones and give clean ones in their place. My baby brother was born in very late 1969.

Years went by, I went to elementary schools, junior high and high school and still no technology like we have today. That means no smartphones, personal computers or anything like that. Life went by.

When I turned about 23 or something, I remember hearing about personal computers using DOS and other abbreviated disks that meant something. Meanwhile I went to Moorpark College, trying to get my distributional undergraduate course work completed in the humanities. Again no computers that I could remember, no efforts made to teach we young students that society was about to enter a caste-like world where there would be a two-tier division of labor, i.e., those who "made it over the digital divide" and those like me who never would or could.

In 1989, I entered the field of Russian Studies, and was graduated with a BA (Cum Laude) in Russian Studies at the then Monterey Institute of International Studies in 1990. I had many jobs after that I got great satisfaction from in the next several years. Once, I worked as a human service professional (not a social worker)making $12-$16 an hour in a series of low-paying jobs working with people. In one job I worked with Russian Speaking immigrants who wanted to get their children into the federally funded preschool program called: "Head Start". 10 years proceeding my move to the Middle East, I worked as a Behaviour Management Consultant, educating the parents of Autistic and other developmentally disabled children on how to deal with difficult-to-handle behaviours. I educated people mostly in Spanish.

Years have gone by now. I now live in Israel, have an English teaching job where I make about $1200 a month and a caregiving job during mornings where I make an additional $500. This is not enough to live here in Jerusalem where you need to make at least $2500 per month just to get by. I am grateful for what I have because it could be much worse: I could be 53 years old with no job whatsoever, which I know is common more over the world. Had I had the aptitude, I would have gone into High Tech, making perhaps at least $5000 per month (which is good in Israel) but didn't do anything like that.It is no one's fault, including myself, but it is an IS, nonetheless.

I don't pay rent. On the one hand that is a very good thing, on the other it is not a normal situation. I live with two other, older bachelors in the Old City in Jerusalem. I am living with friends but I was always taught that a man my age should have something of his own to live in and yet I do not.

I teach Hebrew to a girl in Southern California on the UPWORK platform. I have done so successfully for almost two years now. About three days a go, I got notice that I MIGHT have a job working 10:30 PM - 7:00 AM uploading, local news articles in Hebrew onto my personal FB page (Why it has to be my FB pages, I do not know and am afraid to ask for fear that it would lesson my chances of landing this job). The job pays $10.00 per hour, which would be the highest hourly rate I have ever seen since I moved here.

The personal conundrum I have is that if I get this job, it will be eight hours a day, five days a week and I cannot afford to let go of any of my other two jobs that I currently have because I don't know what kind of job security this new job might offer. If I am offered this job, it also means that five days a week, I will be lucky if I get sleep three hours of sleep a day. This would be ridiculous but I don't know what options I have at this age. We will have to see

One thing is certain: No one is guaranteed anything in this new world order of work( And yes I know that High Tech people are also vulnerable to job dislocation and the rest of it) None of this is a good thing because we humans are frail. We need some Maslowian Needs met at we also need to rest our bodies. The only ones who do not see this inhumane system the way it is are the people that can say: Well, "I've got mine".